My Health is a Merry go Round

I was just told, not only do I have MS and Lupus, I also have Fibromyalgia! I couldn’t understand why my Percocet, Neurontin and Lyrica aren’t working. I can’t get rid of the pain! My body is fighting on so many fronts.. Is this what I have to suffer until I die? Incredible pain with no relief? My right arm and hand are useless. I am helpless to my health. I have no control of my body anymore.

I live in a rural area. I cant afford cable or internet. There is no busing. My Dr’s, pharmacy, groceries are all in a 5 mi area. I have no extra money for a cab. I’m too young for any help at the senior center. I can’t walk far even with a walker….So I’m housebound. I feel helpless. With my health, ability to get what I have to. I don’t feel the joy of life like I once did. Makes me sad. I want it back. I struggle everyday with just trying to function.

I don’t want to spin so out of control that I won’t be able to get some of it back. I was raised to get a grip and move on. But I can’t. These diseases won’t let me.

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